My joy, my love, my soul
Sucked from my existence
Buried deep into my scars-
Forever
My peace, my pleasure, my faith
Once vibrant and colorful
Now stupid pigments of my imagination-
Forever
My hopes, my dreams, my smiles
Lay shattered like a mirror
That reflects my teas and pain-
Forever
My comfort, my safety, my best friend
Walked away stepping on the pieces
Of a battered broken heart-
It is over
Tears stain their damp landing spots
With the dark memories of their existence
Fear, pain, and anger passing through
My thoughts
Blood stains newly opened sores
From the torment of the heart that loved
Regret, loss, and loneliness forever traits of
My life
Knives run deep into old wounds reopened
Relief for a time but a scar forever
Confusion, depression, and guilt seen, lasting in
My actions
Shaky hands grip the metal that makes my decision
Death of a life, death of the memories, and death of my pain
Hopeless, helpless and tired I have been pushed to the edge of
My end
Half a cup of bitterness
A tiny pinch of fury
One whole pound of hatred
And a tiny bit of gloomy
2 cups of resentment
Stir in a bit of glum
Pour in a bunch of cheerlessness
And beat till feeling lonesome
Then a tablespoon of dismal
Plus one part feeling down
And 3 cups animosity
Ought a make you frown
Don't forget discouragement
And that half a cup of rage
Now just mix until tormented
Then slip back into your cage
Tears of Sadness dare not show
Though deprived of lasting hope
Deep inside I seek and pray
That strength holds on for one more day
My anger boils deep within
Unknown rage leads to sin
Wicked thoughts I curse my god
Time we'd spend together, robbed
I love this woman oh so much
But frail hands quiver at my touch
Fingers wrinkled from the years
And once again I hold back tears
My mind now drifts to things of past
Her sparkling eyes and cheerful laugh
Now replaced with lifeless flesh
And now I'm trapped beneath this mess
Clawing screaming must get out!
In come pouring thoughts of doubt
"But grandma, grandma, can't you see?
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Current Residence: Ky- US Favourite genre of music: punk/hardcore/rock Operating System: Windows XP MP3 player of choice: Winamp Personal Quote: if you have a negative outlook then all you see is black and white.... you miss all of lifes colors!
well i've been gone forever i know, but as soon as i have time i'll pull up a whole lot of photographs i've taken over this summer! I hope i'll get too soon! it's nice to hear from everyone again:)
YESSS! I am SOOO excited! I am finally getting a NICE scanner that will be dependible! hehe no more digital shots! i feel so incredibly limited right now... but it should be here in a week, so excting things will begin to happy! haha
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YESSS! I am SOOO excited! I am finally getting a NICE scanner that will be dependible! hehe no more digital shots! i feel so incredibly limited right now... but it should be here in a week, so excting things will begin to happy! haha
:clap: :floating: :bounce: :w00t: =p :giggle: :blowkiss: :party: :worship: :slow: :love: :D :) :nod: :laughing: :aww: :lick: ;) :happycry: